bemyheroine
I'm dancing in the room as I would in the woods with you | ||||||||
I'm waking up, and I see the world again.
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Friday, November 28, 2008, 6:10 PM
what a wonderful world
But somehow... Somehow I knew from deep down that it would come to this... It was bound to. Because it always does. Me, in the mask and the make up. Playing the role of the criminal. And for this once... who am I kidding? forever. always. I feel like I belong to this part. Like I was MADE for this part. To play the evil, cynical, sadistic, masochistic, deceitful, pathetic, disgusting being. To be the devil of this two player game. To be the winner, that doesn't win anything. It was always bound to come to this. I'm sorry, but it's true. You knew it. I knew it. So why? Why did I do what I did? Why did I play along as though it was just a game? In all honestly... What the FUCK is wrong with me? Your words... What am I suppose to say..? How can I not make myself the enemy? What could I possibly say to make myself feel better? So that this overbearing weight wont topple and tumble over me. Drowning me Suffocating me. What can I say? That I'll be here for you? I always will be. That I'll keep my distance? I'd do anything for you. What can I do? What can I say? What is expected of me? Oh god. I just know you're going to read this. So what was the point of me writing it in the first place? To explain myself? To justify my actions? But you see... I dont have an excuse For this time, for once in my life. I've run dry. I cant find the cheat code, I cant find the button to key them in. four stars. HA! i wish. I just got your sms... Guilt-free? When will I ever be guilt free? Ever? If there's one thing you should know about me. Is that I remember every negative thing about myself. And leave them on the surface of my brain forever. You know that's true... Hell... Thinking about it. You know alot about me. It's pretty amazing really. If you see the short amount of time we've actually known each other... I wanna say sorry. But I know that it would be useless... Really... I dont know what to say... Except. This time, I hope I'm making the right decision... So where do we go from here? Midnight calls? Goodnight calls? Random meetings? 6am in the morning fuzzles? Where does it all go? where do we go from here? Haha you're right. Life. Is wonderful. Just Plain. Wonderful. < Fung 3 |
whenthelightsgoout
Said I hate you. But I lied.who thought she could own the world who knew love could taste... just so damn sweet too bad it kills you in the end. |
mymanyaddictions
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+ Stick up. + talk about lame + I'm sorry I'm not like other girls.I guess this go... + take the chance? + you beat me downbut now I'mbiggerbetterstronger.yo... + to be addressed: + Podium. + Uhuh... Sure + Leaving + You said you'd be here to hold my handRight up to ... livingthepast
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