bemyheroine
I'm dancing in the room as I would in the woods with you | |||||||||||
I'm waking up, and I see the world again.
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Tuesday, February 24, 2009, 10:54 PM
500 miles
I'm gonna be the man who wakes up next to you When I go out yeah I know I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the man who goes along with you If I get drunk yes I know I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the man who gets drunk next to you And if I haver yeah I know I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the man who's havering to you But I would walk 500 miles And I would walk 500 more Just to be the man who walked 1000 miles To fall down at your door When I'm working yes I know I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the man who's working hard for you And when the money comes in for the work I'll do I'll pass almost every penny on to you When I come home yeah I know I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the man who comes back home to you And if I grow old well I know I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the man who's growing old with you When I'm lonely yes I know I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the man whose lonely without you When I'm dreaming yes I know I'm gonna dream Dream about the time when I'm with you. ------ I love this song. haha. Muax darling. It's our song. , 10:19 PM
I'm Yours
It's cold and I'm shivering my steps, they begin to fumble What's wrong with me? I can't stop crying. It's one of those days Where a thought wouldn't come to your head Where the only thing that appears Is his voice and his face It's one of those times When you feel like instead of a heart You have cold steel Shoved deep and down your chest It's another of those things Where it feels like it would last forever Where you look towards the next few days and all you see is pain. Millions of thoughts meandering through my mind what happens if I fall behind? The cold silent tears, in the cold silent night would I give up without a fight? Tell me you miss me Tell me how much I mean to you Tell me of all the things you love about me Tell me just how much you care Show me that you want me Show me that you need me Show me that you can't live without me Show me that you'll hold me in your arms forever Swear that you love me Swear that you'll never leave me Swear that you'll never stop thinking of me Swear that you'll keep me. And I'll give you my all And I'll give you everything I have And I'll give you all that I could ever give Just tell me. that I'm yours. And baby, I will be. ----------------------------------- laughable really, its actually quite bad. Maybe it's cuz I'm tired. I'll try again another time. Sorry. haha I love you. Fung , 10:09 PM
wrong time
I'm thinking of him again. Don't you think life is so unfair sometimes? I can't wait... I can't wait till he returns. Till my heart is returned to me. I can't wait. Maybe I should write a poem? I haven't done one of those in a long time. I sure am rusty. Haha. We'll see. If I like it I shall post it. That is assuming I can even write one. muax. heart, fy. , 10:02 PM
As Long As You're Mine.
Hold me too tight I need help believing You're with me tonight My wildest dreamings Could not forsee Lying beside you With you wanting me And just for this moment As long as you're mine I've lost all resistance And crossed some border line And if it turns out It's over too fast I'll make every last moment last As long as you're mine Maybe I'm brainless Maybe I'm wise But you've got me seeing Through different eyes Somehow I've fallen Under your spell And somehow I'm feeling It's up that I fell Every moment As long as you're mine I'll wake up my body And make up for lost time Say there's no future For us as a pair And though I may know I don't care Just for this moment As long as you're mine Come be how you want to And see how bright we shine Borrow the moonlight Until it is through And know I'll be here holding you As long as you're mine , 6:03 PM
Lil'D
I know it sucks. I know it hurts. I know that it feels like there's no way you can ever recover from this. I know that you feels as though you've been shattered into a million pieces, stabbed, betrayed, hurt, torn into half. I know that you think it's the end and that there is nothing else to live for. But you're wrong. I know I may seem like the last person to understand how you feel. But everyone had gone through heartbreak before. You have, I have, she has, everyone has. She got over it, I did, and so did you. I know how much you've put into this and please please please, know that it isn't your fault. Maybe it's Gods way of telling you... She's not the one. She's not the one prepared to handle all of your love. She'll find her 'one' one day. And so would you. And when you have you would look back upon this and think... thank you. Thank you for showing me what I was capable of and to push me into becoming something more. I'm lucky, I know. In my eyes I'm the luckiest girl on this planet. One day, you'll find a girl who thinks exactly the same way I do. And indeed she would be the luckiest girl on this whole damn planet to be held by you, loved by you, cared by you. You're an amazing guy, you know it. Everything a girl can possibly dream of. More than that in fact, but she ain't the one. She's not the right one. Don't lose hope, because the harder it is to find 'her', the more worth it she is. Who knows? Maybe one day when you're 20 you'd be teaching at a music academy and meet a girl you'd think you're most unlikely to be with (cuz she's 5 years younger than you =P ) and *poof* the magic appears. Or maybe when you're thirty and successful and lonely and looking for a girl to love and as you think that whilst being emo to yourself, you run into a girl in a yellow coat? Or maybe in a few months time you go to a party and across the room this gorgeous girl with auburn hair catches your eye? There are billions of possibilities. And you'd probably go through a hundred relationships, a hundred break ups, a hundred heart breaks, before you find the right one. But when you do... you'll realize... oh my god... this is it. This is the one I've been looking for. And then you'd live happily ever after right? Don't fret my dear, you're young. There are plenty of fishes in the sea. One girl doesn't matter, one girl doesn't change you. Sure it may seem like the days drag on and theres nothing else to look forward to... But look forward to meeting her To meeting the girl of your dreams. Life is not without hardship. You'll get through it. And Brendan, Aaron, Dillian and I would all be here to ensure you keep walking with your head up. You can do this. You know you can. You're strong. You can do it. I don't doubt you. Brendan doesn't doubt you. Aaron doesn't doubt you. Don't start doubting yourself. we'll be here. I'll be here. No matter what happens. I'm only a phone call away. or a visit. If you feel like it. =] We're still in the same country after all. Stay strong. Keep your head up. As Aaron says: Remember two things, One, girls will only respect and recognize a guy who does the same for himself. So don't beat yourself up Two, it's now a change to look damn good the next time you see her. And that's always fun. He's worried about you too. I've yet to tell him the full story of what is going on but I will in the end. I'm so sorry you've gotta go through something you are going through. But... It's like and no matter how much B or I or Aaron wants to shelter you from this kinda thing... No one can really help you but yourself. So please always remember... You have to help yourself. Don't pull yourself down in the dumps too much okay? We all love you. =] Stay Strong. love, Fung. Come on Lil'D. You can do this. You know you can. Saturday, February 21, 2009, 5:32 PM
Once again...
lol. I should anyway. It's been a while. Less then a week but still a while... Blogging seems to have lost its meaning when he doesn't read it. When he can't. So... but yeah. I think... I have to stop relying on him for the many things that I used to do. Such as... have a life. LOL. He was my life. He was my light. He was my everything and more. Now he's gone... It's like the light has turned off. Now I have to plunge around the place switching everything back on. I guess theres something wrong with the power plug. Maybe give me time, maybe I can get it charged up enough for me to have just enough light to see my way. Till you come back home to me. Oh gosh. I should stop with the metaphors. Really I should. Ah well... Whoops. there goes the power. Sigh. No internet at the moment. I guess I'll post this when it comes back on. And there it is. Lol. But it'll keep going off and on for the next god knows how long Malaysia decides to cry. We're killing it after all. People constantly ask me how I'm doing. It's like as though I'm about to jump off a cliff or slice my own wrists or something. Although, I must say. it's really sweet of them. Really sweet of everyone. Especially on Valentine's Day. Thank you, Bianca, Arianna, Andrew, Brendan, Devon, Dillian for making the day oh so much more special. =] For showing how much you guys care. Thank you my baby. For giving me the chance to be so utterly happy on that day. For giving me everything. Do you ever wake up and you open your eyes. All you can do is smile? Like now. I can look out the window and the rain is pouring outside. 'Tuesday Morning' by Michelle Branch is playing. All I can do is smile. Because well... because of you. Maybe I should write a poem about him? But what on earth can I say that would mean enough? Lol. Ah well. Yknow the thing I'm most looking forward to? Prom. Why? cuz he's coming back sometime soon to that. And I realize too. That prom would be my last prom with Bianca, Arianna, Michelle, PQ. Oh gosh, I really am not looking forward to that factor. Why does everyone have to go? =[ I love you guys. You all are so amazing. I dont know what I can say or do to tell y'all how much you guys mean to me. I swear. I have never ever felt this grateful. maybe I SHOULD write a poem. meh. we'll see. haha time to return to real life. =] give me a week. hopefully I'll have updated by then. xx I can't wait till the snow begin to fall. Because I can't wait till I get to feel the warmth from your hands. your one and only. Saturday, February 14, 2009, 11:30 AM
urbandictionary.com
Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answer to each question in the search box, and write the FIRST definition it gives you. You're going to find some pretty funny results. Try not to take offense to some of them! [1] Your First Name: Fung cool, buff, choong, any positive adjective can now be defined by FUNG. [2] Your Last Name: Tai An individual that is unusually fly. [3] Your Birth Month: January National Hangover Month. Because of the recent holidays and massive partying the general population spends the month hungover [4] Your Age: 15 the REAL age to be considered a teenager, young person, young adult, etc [5] Your Birthplace: Malaysia Malaysia is the country for malays only, though all races are there. Malay government building up more goverment institutions to feed malays because this malay youth is so fucking dumb they can't find a fair way to feed themselves. If you go to any government office, malay men and women cut silly jokes to each other instead of paying attention to their work. Infact they are not capable doing any kinda work, may be because they are genetically dork. One more thing, they are being very proud to be muslims, though a father fucks his on daughter. They are big time liar and not trustworthy. Never go there. *holy crap don't take this personally okay Malaysians?* [6] Your Current Location: KL kl, meaning Kewl, which is another urban word for cool. [7] Your Favorite Number: 18 The age which you are first considered a human being at. Any age below 18 is highly discriminated against almost everywhere in the world and you are not yet human in the eyes of almost everyone. People under the age of 18 are legally allowed to be, with the exception of being murdered or tortured, treated exactly like slaves of the 1800's by slave owners, called "adults, parents, or gardians" for obvious reasons. [8] Your Favorite Color: Navy Blue a lovely shade of dark blue [9] Your Favorite Movie: Don't have one. So I'm picking one on the top of my head and say: A Walk To Remember a film used to make people cry. if you want to cry just watch this film. [10] Your Closest Friends: 1) Aaron Da most sexyiest n smartest guy in da world. Straight all da way. Awesome in everything (HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA I love you. =] ) 2) Bianca 1. Indescribably beautiful. 2. The nicest, most caring, and sweetest girl in the world. 3. The best girlfriend anybody could ever ask for. (I swear I ain't making this up. It's in the dictionary! Hahaha) 3) Michelle Flirtatious and Having astounding sex appeal by nature. Attention whore. Gregarious and very social. (Sorry Ming) 4) PQ Means "Party Quest" used in MapleStory (a online game) (Ehehehe) 5) Zheng To own oneself with extraordinary vigor, esp. to incur spectacular and lasting injuries; to painfully fail. 6) Andrew The boy's name Andrew \a-nd-rew, an-drew\ It is of Greek origin, and its meaning is "man, warrior". 7) Arianna Arianna, a more unique name, originating from the Lost World. People with this name are literally worshipped by their offspring and friends. Often times there are moments where you will get flashbacks with Arianna, due to their repetitive quote, "Remember that one time...?" (HAHAHAHA) 8) Brendan Brendan is a Hiberno-English derivative of the Irish name Bréanainn, a hibernicisation from the Brythonic "Brenhin" -King.citation needed The anglicism has been re-hibernicised as Breandan. Another form is Brandon which is often used in English-speaking countries, but is far less superior. (uh... what?) 9) Natalie The most beautiful and loving person I have ever met... I love her and she can be the best person ever 1. kind 2. loving 3. beautiful 4. sporty everything 10) Reuben An erect inverted Mike Fiday handstands while another male straddles his taint, while inserting and thrusting their erected members into each designated sphincter; this continues until the act of thrusting results in complete and utter satisfaction... oscillating meat. (OMFG HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA) 11) JARRAH
[11] The Last Person You Talked To (Who Isn't Already Mentioned): Justin Sexy, without flaw, loving, kindhearted, name for someone that is special to you, thoughtful. (ahaha. be honored. =P =P) [12] Your nickname: 1) Foo short for fool. Like calling someone a fool, but they are so stupid they don't deserve the last "l" so you just call them foo. (awh. now that's just mean Bianca.) 2) Backside From behind, afterwards, happens after the fact. (uhmmm...) 3) Fungy someone who is funny but also smells like fungus (OI!) Tuesday, February 10, 2009, 11:55 PM
lol. blog He's leaving in about 15 minutes. and I ain't on the phone with him... why? I have no idea. The mood is set. 9 crimes playing in the background. tears streaming down my face. what is there left? why would this happen here? why would this happen now? why do i feel like ive done something wrong? why do i feel like things are not going to be the same? why do i feel like i'm just not... that important anymore. I'm drunk on depression. I'm high on suicidal thoughts. where are you when I need you? why did you have to go? why are you leaving me here alone? why? I'm sorry. I love you. |
whenthelightsgoout
Said I hate you. But I lied.who thought she could own the world who knew love could taste... just so damn sweet too bad it kills you in the end. |
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