bemyheroine
I'm dancing in the room as I would in the woods with you | ||||||||
I'm waking up, and I see the world again.
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Tuesday, December 30, 2008, 9:45 PM
who calls for apologies?
you could've told me. you know I'm always here for you. give me a call. come over. you know you don't have to be alone. you know you don't have to to what you do. but you just do. alot of people. cannot choose where they go. alot of people. don't have the sense to make the right choice. I'm here for you. I need you to know. that You could always make the right choice if you want to. Where are you heading now? Where are you going? aren't you lost and confused? aren't you sick of the same thing happening again and again? thus I am here to smack some of those sense into you. what happens to you. happens to alot of people out there. but you're you. they are them. you can make your own decisions and you know it. you can pull away. you can make your life better. you can make life worth it. but you don't. not because you can't. or because it's fate. but because you don't want to. I need you to know that what you're doing isn't good for you. I need you to know that you can change. I listen. how can I not judge? I care for you. I love you. I miss you. But how can I sit back and watch you do this to yourself? I don't know if you'd listen to me. or if you'd care to try. but how can I just listen and not do anything about it? am I suppose to let you do what you do. ruin yourself for it. and just not do anything about it? You know who your true friends are. You know who really cares for you. You know who will be here no matter what happens You know who will listen to you scream, shout, cry, laugh, bitch, or talk. You know who HAS been here all this while You know who HAS never left you You know who HAS never let you go You know who HAS always cared for you. you as a person, of your well-being, of your health, of your safety. You know who HAS always always always did the thing she thought was best for you. You know that that person. is me. And I know that too. I believe you. I listen to you. But I am going to try to help you. No matter what. You can push me away. You can do all sorts of things. you can stop calling me. stop talking to me. but know that. I am never going to stop trying to help you I am never going to stop being here for you I am never going to stop trying to tell you that you deserve better. that you can do better. which you know you can. I understand our differences doesn't mean I'm going to accept it. because I know I just know. that you can do better than this. this is the amount of faith I have in you. which is alot. we've been friends for four years. what makes you think I'm going to stop now? I love you. <3 Fung Sunday, December 28, 2008, 7:05 PM
69
"this is a place where I sit. This is the part where I love you too much." 2. Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them?: nope. not into that kinda thing. 3. Why did your last relationship end? cause it just wasn't right. 4. What are you seriously wearing? can I be joking...? uhm... shorts and a shirt. haha 5. When is the last time you saw the person you like/liked? YESTERDAY. (and I wish it'll never end) 8. Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night? nope. not really. depends. =] 9. Think of all your exes. Would you take any of them back? uhhh. dont think so... 10. On your "lazy days" what would you be doing?.. sleep. and random nonsensical things. like this. 13. Who was the last person to slap your but? hahahahaha. who else? 15. Song that's on your mind? uhm... flightless bird. from Twilight. 16. Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie? Angelina Jolie. She's hotter. 17. Have you said “I love you” today? nope. 18. If you could change one thing about your body, would you? yes. haha. 23. Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone? yeap. 24. Could you live without a computer? forever? no way in hell. 25. Have you ever wore chaps? no idea where that is. 26. Is anyone on your bad side now? uhmm... nope. 27. What jewelry are you wearing? currently? nothing but a ring. =] our ring. 28. Whos your fav singers/Band? THE LIGHT CIRCLE. hahahaha and alot more. too many to name really. 29. Do you watch Grey's Anatomy? used to. 30. How do most people spell your name? Fong? Fang? god knows. 31. Whats two of your favorite movies? hmm... too many to name. =[ 32. What are you doing tomorrow? lunch with friends. unsure bout the rest 33. Will you keep your last name when you get married? nope. 34. When is the last time you left your house? uhm... earlier. like 5 min ago. to go get mcd's. =D 35. Do you have a dishwasher? nope. 36. Would you survive in prison? haha. highly doubt it. 37. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you? hell yeah. 38. Do you know anyone with the same name as you? my brothers? my cousins? aside from that... no. 39. How many pairs of shoes do you own? i have no idea. 40. Whats the last thing you ate & why ? im CURRENTLY eating mcd's =D 41. What service is your cell phone? maxis. hotlink. =] 42. What's your middle name? uhm... fung? ying? 43. Where is your cell phone? infront of my on the table 44. How are you sitting? what on earth? uhmm. cross legged. hehe 45. What brand are your pants right now? god knows. 46. Ever been to Georgia? nope 47. What irritates you most on the internet? not there alot of the time when you REALLY REALLY need it. 48. Do you watch movies with your parents? sometimes. :) 49. Whats one thing you always said youd never do but did? well i said I'd never do it at the age of 14 at least... =] 50. What song best describes your life right now? umm... 51. Did you get a new years kiss? nope 52. What do you drink? uh... liquid? 53. What was one thing given to you as a child and still have? technically. im STILL a child? but like... um. lotsa stuff. my toys. soft toys. pillow. oh oh ive have my pillow since I was 5..? 54. Do you get your hair cut every month? nope. 55. Do you go online every day? nope. haha 56. Do you know anyone that has changed your life? almost everyone i meet. =] 57. Did you have fun today? uhh... i had a 3 hour nap? dance class was pretty alright. talking on the phone was awesome tho. =] 58. Do you like your life right now? yes. 59. Do some people hate you? probably. 60. Do you have any tattoos or piercings? i do want a tattoo. but I have one piercing. a pair rather, on my ears. 61. Who was the first person that you texted this morning? aaron. =] 62. Do you lead people on? probably... 63. Do you love anyone besides family & friends? haha. hmmm. getting there. 64. When was the last time you did drugs? never tried them. 65. Most hated food? VEGGIES 66. Do you believe in love? not yet. no. 67. Did you love any of your exs? nope. (sorry.) 68. Kissed someone in the last 48 hrs? YES. 69. What is one thing you think people mistake about love? taken for granted. something so great should never be. <3 Fung. isn't it a god-awful irony this ends with a 69? haha. nice. Friday, December 19, 2008, 3:52 PM
time doesn't fly
9 months 270 days 6480 hours 388800 minutes 23328000 seconds in pure agony. 23328000 seconds baby. I am going to suffer. 3 Monday, December 15, 2008, 4:53 PM
Home.
Always Inside of me But I can't go back Back to how it was I believe you now I've come too far No I can't go back Back to how it wasCreated for a place I've never known This is home Now I'm finally Where I belong Yeah, this is home I've been searching Yeah,For a place of my own Now I've found it Maybe this is home this is home Belief over misery I've seen the enemy And I won't go back Back to how it was And I got my heart Set on What happens next It's not over yetI got my eyes wide We are miracles And we're not alone And now after all My searching After all my questions I'm gonna call it home I got a brand new mindsetI can finally see The sunset I'm gonna call it home , 4:40 PM
colours!
1. Are you currently mad at someone? uhm... Nope. 2. Which of your friends has the worst temper? My brother. Definitely. 3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? haha yeah. 4. Does your face turn red when you're angry? nope. 5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell/scream? both at the same time. haha ORANGE 1. Has anyone ever thrown you a suprise party? nopee. 2. Are you easily excited? very much. TOO easily excited. haha 3. What event is coming up that your most excited about? tomorrow. =D Then again, for that I have good reason. 4. Which of your friends is most excitable? umm... Aaron! hahaha 5. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought? fucking hell. 6. If you could have anything right now what would it be? =] I wonder... YELLOW 1. NAME? Fung 2. Where were you born? here. Well, Malaysia 3. What's your main goal in life? have yet to decide. lol 4. Do you want to have children? yes. =D 5. How do you want to die? without pain. =] naturally. GREEN 1. Do you like this colour? relatively. Depends which shade. =] 2. Gay Marriage? support it. =] 3. Lowering the drinking age? hahahaha. 4. Capital Punishment? depends. 5. Abortion? slight negative feelings towards it... But I know it can't be helped at times so yeah... 6. Recycling? try my best. BLUE 1. What was your latest dream? uhmm. Arianna had a Christmas party... I was walking around naked. God knows why. 2. Which of your friends do you dream about the most? ... don't know. haha 3. Have any of your dreams come true? nope. 4. Do you usually remember your dreams? one or two. 5. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had? weirdest...? getting stabbed by Princess Leia, who was carrying a goldfish and there was a talking radio. *shudder* PURPLE 1. Straight, Gay, Bi? Straight. 2. Do you have a bf/gf? Mmhmm. 3. Do you have a crush? haha yes. 4. Who is the best 'hugger' that you know? hugger? my big bro! he fat. he comfy. HAHAHAHA 5. Do you believe in love at first sight? nope 6. Have you ever been in love? nope. , 4:13 PM
that one night.
![]() ![]() Prom. The one night where we all got dolled up and walked the red carpet. Looking absolutely stunning. And that when we went home, we could not bear to wash up. I owe my night to a few certain people. Eric. My date. Haha, okay it was not a very successful night. But thank you for being there. And for the flowers and chocolates. You're too sweet. ![]() Arianna. My baby. I love you so much. Thank you for everything, my gratitude is immense. ![]() Bianca. My darling. I love you so much too. You were amazing with everything. ![]() Aaron. My sweetie. I owe you so much. What have I done to ever deserve...? Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Prom itself was a little dull, a little off. But it is thanks to you guys Piek Qian. Michelle. Bianca. Arianna. Eric. Alief. Jason. Bryan Wang. Bryan Low. Aaron. And so so many more that made the night a great night. So much For everything. =] I. Love. You guys. haha Like crazy. <3 Fung. Tuesday, December 9, 2008, 9:06 PM
Supermassive Blackhole
Oh baby dont you know I suffer? Oh baby can you hear me moan? You caught me under false pretenses How long before you let me go? You set my soul alight Glaciers melting in the dead of night And the superstars sucked into the supermassive I thought I was a fool for no-one Oh baby I'm a fool for you You're the queen of the superficial And how long before you tell the truth its a supermassive black hole -------------- oh dude. I love this song. i swear to god it's amazing. Supermassive Black Hole. by Muse. love it. super sexy i tell you <3 all I can think about is you. Monday, December 8, 2008, 9:08 PM
Because I was BORED
[x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation. [x] Disney movies still make me cry. [x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried. [x] I’ve glued my hand to something. [x] I’ve laughed ’til some kind of beverage came out of my nose. [ ] I’ve had my pants rip in public. • Health • [x] I’ve gotten stitches. [ ] Broken a bone. [ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed. [x] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend. [ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed. [ ] I’ve had serious surgery. [ ] I’ve had chicken pox. • Traveling • [x] I’ve driven / riden over 200 miles in one day. [x] I’ve been on a plane. [ ] I’ve been to Canada. [ ] I’ve been to Cuba. [ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls. [ ] I’ve been to Ottawa. [ ] I’ve gone to Sudbury. [ ] I’ve been to the Caribbean. [ ] I’ve been to Europe. • Experiences • [x] I’ve gotten lost in my city. [ ] I’ve seen a shooting star. [ ] I’ve wished on a shooting star. [ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower. [x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas. [x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator. [x] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts. [x] I’ve been to a casino. [ ] I’ve been skydiving. [ ] I’ve gone skinny-dipping. [ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. [ ] I’ve crashed a car. [ ] I’ve been skiing. [ ] I’ve been in a musical. [ ] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue. [ ] I’ve seen the Northern Lights. [ ] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night. [x] I’ve played a prank on someone. [x] I’ve ridden in a taxi. • Relationships • [x] I’m single. [x] I’m in a relationship. [ ] I’m married. [x] I miss someone right now. [ ] I’ve gotten divorced. [x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t. [x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. • Honesty / Crime • [x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t. [x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t. [x] I’ve snuck out. [x] I’ve lied to my parents about where I am. [x] I’ve cheated while playing a game. [ ] I’ve ran a red light. [x] I’ve witnessed a crime. [ ] I’ve been in a fist fight. [ ] I’ve been arrested. • Death and Suicide • [] I’m afraid of dying. [x] I hate funerals. [x] I’ve seen someone / something dying. [ ] Someone close to me has attempted / committed suicide. [ ] I’ve planned my own suicide before. [ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself. • Materialism • [x] I own over 5 rap CD’s. [x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime / manga. [ ] I own designer purses costing over $100 a piece. [ ] I own something from Pac Sun. [ ] I collected comic books. [x] I own something from The Gap. [ ] I own something I got on E-Bay. [x] I own something from Abercrombie • Random • [x] I can dance well. [ ] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. [x] I open up to others easily [ ] I watch the news. [x] I don’t kill bugs/don't like to [x] I sing in the shower. [ ] I am a morning person. [ ] I am a sports fanatic. [x] I twirl my hair. [x] I care about grammar. [ ] I have “?”’s in my screen name. [ ] I love spam. [ ] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day. [ ] I bake well. [ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange. [x] I would wear pajamas to school. [ ] I like Martha Stewart. [] I know how to shoot a gun. [ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. [x] I laugh at my own jokes [ ] I eat fast food weekly. [x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. [ ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room. [x] I am really ticklish. [x] I like white chocolate. [x] I bite my nails. [ ] I’m good at remembering faces. [ ] I’m good at remembering names. [x] I’m good at remembering dates. [x] honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. [x] All my answers were totally honest —-YOUR BOY SIDE—- [x] You love hoodies. [x] You love jeans. [ ] Dogs are better than cats. [ ] It’s hilarious when people get hurt. [x] Shopping is torture [ ] Sad movies suck. [x] You own a car racing game. [x] You played with Hot Wheels cars as a kid. [x] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter. [x] You owned a DS, PS2, N64,or Sega. [x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers. [x] You have watched sports on TV [ ] Gory movies are cool. [ ] You go to your dad for advice. [ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps. [ ] You used to collect hockey cards. [x] Baggy sweats are cool to wear. [ ] It’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people. [x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. [x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think. [ ] Sports are fun [ ] You talk with food in your mouth. [x] You sleep with your socks on at night. [ ] You have fished at least once —-YOUR GIRL SIDE—- [ ] You love to shop. [x] You wear eyeliner [x] You wear the color pink. [ ] You go to your mom to talk. [x] You consider cheerleading a sport. [ ] You hate wearing the color black. [ ] You like going to the mall. [x] You like wearing jewelry. [x] You cried watching The Notebook. [ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe. [ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies. [ ] You don’t like the movie Star Wars [x] You are/were in gymnastics [x] It takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed [x] You smile a lot more than you should. [ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes. [x] You care about what you look like. [ ] You like wearing dresses when you can. [x] You like wearing high heel shoes. [ ] You used to play with dolls as little kid. [ ] You like putting make-up on others. [x] You like being the star of everything. [ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors. 1. Spell your first name backwards: Gnuf (I shall call my future bear that. =D _ 2. Story behind your facebook display name? It's my name. Connected together. True story. 3. What month were you born in? Januarry, <3 4. Where do you live? Petaling Jaya. DESCRIBE YOUR: 5. Jewelry worn daily: umm... Don't have a constant jewelry selection. Most of the time I'm just too lazy to. Unless I'm going out. 6. Pillow cover right now? Red and Blue 7. Best Friend: Bi. Drew. PQ. Michelle. Ari. Aaron. Zheng. I'm not even gonna bother trying. 8. Favorite t- shirt: Umm... oh a gray fake Roxy one. Love it. 9. Cologne/Perfume: Don't own any. 10. CD in stereo: umm.. I listen to my brother's Itunes. 11. Piercings: Ears only. Wanna get a belly piercing tho. =P WHAT ARE YOU: 12. Wearing now: my school uniform. 13. Wishing for: you. 14. Wanting: you..? LOL. 15. Something you are deathly afraid of? monkeys. monkeys. monkeys. even their name sounds evil. MONK. KEYS. oh god. nightmares. 16. Do you like candles: love em. romantic. =] 17. Do you like the taste of blood: relatively. sorta. 18. Do you believe in love: depends. 19. Do you believe in God? nope. sorry. 20. What's something you wish you could understand better? life. in general. or better yet. myself. FASHION STUFF: 21. Where is your favorite place to shop? uhhh. haha wrong girl to ask really. UNITED STATES OF AMERICA. or china. 22. What is your favorite thing to wear? umm... my PJ's! 23. How much is the most you've ever spent on a single clothing item? 400 24. Who is the least fashionable person/people you know? HahahAHAHAA. not that mean. 25. Do you match your belt with your hair color? belts? nope. 26. How many pairs of shoes do you own? god knows. lol. 27. What is the worst trend you see today? uhh... RANDOMNESS: 28. Do you do drugs? NO. 29. What kind of soap do you use? Dove? Johnsons? Whatever's available. 30. What are you listening to right now? over my head. by The Fray 31. Who was the last person that called you? Aaron. 32. Where do you want to get married? on the beach. 33. How many buddies are online right now? not bothered. really really not bothered. 34. What are essentials in your life? family. friends. life. happiness. 35. Do you send out holiday cards each year? nope 36. Hair right now? umm. the usual. it's down and messy. 37. When was the last time you got a sunburn? cannot remember. Year10 camp I should say. 38. Things that drive you crazy? ummmmm.... alot of things. 39. Where are you right now? my brother's room. Have you ever made out in a bathroom? hahahahahAHAHAHAHAAHHAHA. oh my gosh. lol. I dont think so. What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had? Ribena. (like right now) When is the last time you cried? 2 days ago I think. Are you scared of spiders? nope. not really When was the last time you were so drunk you threw up? never. Do you miss anyone? definitely Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? HELL YEAH. What are your plans for this weekend? PROM. PROM. PROM. xxx cannot wait. Ever been to a bonfire party? nope Have you ever been on a horse? love them. of course. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? ahaha. yes. I like it. =] What's irritating you right now? ummm. I really need to get off the com and go shower. Is cheating ever okay? hell no. Are you listening to music right now? yup. I am. 100 years by Five for Fighting I think Do you like Chinese food? LoVe it. Do you know your father's birthday? 23rd of March. What is the last movie you saw in theaters and with who? Twilight. =] hehe. shhh. Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? thinking about it... No... not really. I've moved on. =] Do you get distracted easily? yup. What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? talked on the phone. What was your childhood nickname? uhh. Fung...? lol. fungus. fungi. etc. Is it easier to forgive or forget? forgive. Do you give out second chances too easily? no. Are you jealous of someone? uhuh Do you have a best friend? loads Do you flirt a lot? ehehehe. Would you live with someone without marrying them? yup Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying? no... I hope it wont ever happen. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Andrew. I think. Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink? nope. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? yup. LOL Shortest relationship? 3 weeks. (I'm sorry.) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt? yes yes yes Have you ever broken someone's heart? sucks... but yeah. Is heartbreak really as bad as it sounds? yes. infact. it's worse. 1. Slept naked? =P 2. Taken a shower with someone? yup. but like... when I was young. 3. Kissed a member of the same sex? only on the cheek. 4. Drove a car? nope 5. Stole anything? ehehe. I don't THINK so... I'm not to sure. 6. Been in love? no. 7. Been dumped? ummm. no. 8. Stole money from a friend/family member? ehehehe. my bad. 9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yup. 10. Been in a fist fight? nope. 11. Snuck out of your/someone’s house? yeap. 12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? of course... 13. Been arrested? nope 14. Hugged a stranger? ahahaha dont think so 15.Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? of course. =P 16. Left your house with out telling your parents? nope. 17. Had a crush on your neighbour? nooo. 18. Ditched school to do something more fun? nope. 19. Slept in a bed with a member of the opposite sex? mmhmm 20. Lost a friend? yes. 21. Been on a plane? yeap 22. Been to an island? uhuh. =D 23. Slept in until 3? almost every weekend. 24. Love someone or miss someone right now? yes I do. 25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes. =] 26. Made a snow angel? never touched snow. 27. Played dress up? hahaha. yup. 28. Cheated while playing a game? lol. once again. my bad. 29. Been lonely? yess. 30. Kissed more than 4 people in one night? woah. no. lol 32. Felt an earthquake? nope. 33. Touched a snake? yup. =D i actually like snakes. the harmless ones at least. 34. Ran a red light? don't drive. 35. Been suspended from school? haha nope. Imma good girl. 36. Had detention? yup. okay. maybe not THAT much of a good girl. 37. Been in a car accident? yeah. =[ when I was 8...? 38. Had a party in your house while ur parents were away? nope. But I'm planning one now. =P 39. Used a fake id? nah. 40. Crawled through a window? uhhh. nope. 41. Been lost? yess. 42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yup. 44. Cried yourself to sleep? haha yeah. 47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? uhuh. 48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? hahaha. yeah i think so. 49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? no 50. Kissed in the rain? I would love to. But I've never. 51. Sang in the shower? mmhmm. of coursse 52. Made love in a park? nope. lol. virgin here. 53. Had a dream that you married someone? uhhh nope. 54. Glued your hand to something? didnt you already ask this? 55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? wattt? no. lol. 56. Ever gone to school partialy naked? NO! 57. Ever been a cheerleader? for like... half a term. =P 58. Had more than ten boy/girl friends? no. 59. Didn't take a shower for a week? ew 60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies? ehehe. yeeap. sitll am. 61. Played chicken? yesh 62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? YES. grrrrrr 63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yup. haha. 64. Broken a bone? yes 65. Been easily amused? yeap 66. Laugh so hard you cry? haha. yessss. love it. tho it hurts. 67. Mooned/flashed someone? uhh dont think so. at least not on purpose. =P 68. Cheated on a test? of course. =P 69. Forgotten someone's name? mmhmm 71. Done something dumb while drunk? um nope. 73. Blacked out from drinking? nah. 74. Played a prank on someone? yes 75. Gone to a late night movie? uhuh 76. Made love to anything not human? eew. dude. ew. like... ew 77. Failed a class? nope. =D 78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? uhuh 80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? would never. ever. ever. ever. do that. 81. Celebrate the 4th of July? nope. 82. Thrown strange objects? ...? 83. Felt like killing someone? no. 84. Thought about running away? yes... 86. Got a piercing? yeap 87. Cut your own hair? all the time. =] 89. Made a parent cry? yes. and I feel guilty for that. 90. Cried over someone? yeah... 91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? what...? 92. Dated someone more than once? uhh. nope. 93. Had/Have a dog? have. 3. had 4 94. Have a cell? mmhmm yup 95. Smoked a cigarette? nope. 96. Been in a band? yeap =D 97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No. 98. Broken a CD? yes 99. Shot a gun? I wanna tho. 100. Wanted someone but could never have them? Yes. Yes. Yes Saturday, December 6, 2008, 11:24 PM
SPEECH. How shall I start? ... .. ... .. ... .. [processing] .. ... .. ... .. ... nope. I've got nothing. LOL. ah well... <3Fy. come home! , 8:14 PM
I don't know what to say. I know I confuse you. And I'm sorry that I do. I'm just weird that way. I can't help but say the things I say. I'm trying. To stop. But please. Keep in mind What I said last weekend. and remember, how bad things were at that time. Just keep that in mind. Because I never wanna hurt you ever again. <3 Fy ps. 4 days? whatever for? Friday, December 5, 2008, 8:42 PM
Fill My Head.
I was writing on my wall today and I realized that I was afraid didn't know what to do or say. I took a step away from it I fell into a void so deep to realize I was writing down your name. You fill my head. I don't know why. I've never tried so hard to forget someone before. Push you away You keep coming back The scars never even showing. Somehow... I was taking down the clothes today I dropped them on muddy plane My hands were shaking I felt so lost. This afternoon you were away I felt the need to see your face I spent my day sitting by the door and then I realized You fill my head. I don't know why. I've never tried so hard to forget someone before. Push you away You keep coming back The scars never even showing. Somehow... I've never knew that someone could be so strong I've never heard of someone thats like you. I've never realized just how lucky I am. To have ever found you... You fill my head I don't know why I've never tried so hard to forget someone... till now.. ooooooooooohhhhhh oooooooooohhhhhhh oooooooooohhhh oooooooooooohhhh You fill my head. I don't know why. I've never tried so hard to forget someone before. Push you away You keep coming back The scars never even showing. Somehow... but baby.... I don't wanna push no more.... Thursday, December 4, 2008, 11:30 PM
A Light At Christmas
you guys should go watch it. tomorow's the last night. go go go. it's really very good. =] and of course... ---------- oh my god i dont know what i can do or say that would thank you enough so thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you. even that isnt sufficent. it never would be. never. ever has someone done something like that for me before. and oh god. this means so much to me. i dont even know how i can repay you altho you DO tell me you dont want me to repay you. i just cant help but feel like i have to. and the fact... that they know about me... that they know who I am... tells me something. shows me something. so thank you. Wednesday, December 3, 2008, 9:50 PM
Self Appreciation
stay with me don't fall asleep too soon the angels can wait for a moment. dont go back to them too soon just stay for a little while in this world full of mortals stay with me. what have I done to deserve even this one day with you --- that. was actually pretty damn random. haha. a little bored at the moment and I'm tired. It's sports day tomorrow and I'm only doing one event. *roll eyes* wish i could do more. okay. not really. hahaha and then again, tomorrow I'm gonna go watch A Light In Christmas in KLPAC. =] with Michelle and her family. i hope I'm not imposing on anything there... but I cant wait. i know that they have some great singers there. specially this one guy. =] can't wait. and i think. colbie caillat is good. haha oh and by the way. CALVIN TAN. you are awesome and you know it. and you see? I'm even posting it here cuz you deserve to know it. you emo, self-bashing you. haha happy holidays. =D okay. now I shall go. =] <3Fung you may not know me. but you see, the beauty is... we have all the time in the world... and you may. , 12:50 AM
uhuh... whatever you stupid Shakspeare
fuckidy fuckidity fuckadotoo fucks. i have no idea what im swearing about none at all. JUST done with my essay. and oh god im so SICK of shakespeare. If this time I dont get higher than a C i am GOING to KILL somebody. i dont care who. just SOMEBODY. I am... however, happy that i used to word aptitude in my essay. and for me, that is as impressive as it gets. My internet, however, is absolutely REFUSING to compile towards my commands and does not want to listen to me. I shall take that as a sign to tell me to. GO TO SLEEP. so okay, I will PLUS it's 1am. and i have school tomorrow. =] SCHOOL. let's just fuck school and go hang out in a park somewhere.... i wish. i really really do. sigh gooodnight my bunch of non existant readers. i love you whoever you are. hahahaha yeah. <3 Fy ps, I am gonna be seriously grumpy tomorrow. lack of sleep does that to you. GOODNIGHT. Tuesday, December 2, 2008, 10:47 PM
Analyse Analyze annoyes me. the whole Z S thing I SHALL update later. cuz i ended up reading and not updating. hahaha. and now i got work to do and my brother is annoying the FUCK outta me. =D i shall see you in a bit. xx , 9:53 PM
mmhmm so it's like this...
It was pretty good. best GIS production (at least the full schooled ones) I've seen so far. Waaay better than last years mind you. maybe I'll audition next year... If i ever get that confidence to sing infront of a bunch of people that is. =P I've been at school the whole day cuz of PTC. Ms.Kaur took forever with her part so we ended up staying till nearly 6. Annoying I tell you. But yeah. Overall. PTC wasn't too bad. so I'm relatively happy. =] right. okay, so I'm exhausted but I have like a RichardIII essay to write. and socio hw to do... I have a feeling I'll be sleeping at about 11. ah fuck. and i haven't even showered yet. So i better do before I start on my hw. But hey. What healthy way to get into the mood other than write right? I shall continue this... after my shower. =] Be Right Back. <3Fung ps. Special thank to Aaron. for going ALL the way to garden's to help me get my prom dress. You are too awesome for your own good. Thank you so much. Xxxxx =D Monday, December 1, 2008, 5:47 PM
but whatever. I'M BORED. hahaha but really. I am. <3 , 5:36 PM
I couldn't see you with the smoke in my eyes the last time I called to you you turned awayI couldn't hear you with your voice ringing in my ears. let's get high, slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful please understand. this isn't just goodbye. this is I can't stand you. I don't want to take you home. But just hold me tonight. every harlot. was a virgin once. and one day, robots will cry. I'm Holding Onto Lightning. Will You Be My Thunder , 5:32 PM
However. No it isn't and Make you smile is amazing. BUT it sounds better when you sing it =] oh dear. prom is coming up and then. finally. im just gonna get that BCBG dress. IF its there by tomorrow that is. I hope it is... I really am sick of looking at dresses. SICK. ah well... <3 , 2:03 PM
let's get high, slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
is what i call. bored. i am utterly bored outta my BRAINS. it's not funny. dammit. i gotta stop saying its not funny. its so not funny its not funny. okay this is a lie. the only reason im typing in this is cuz. one. im bored and two. i think the title is cool. see you in a bit! xxx <3Fy |
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