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Friday, October 24, 2008, 6:20 PM
Epiphany
Just tell me why do you like to lie? Why? I would not be truthful too If i were to tell you that I wasn't considering it. To tell you that I never thought of you To tell you that I never missed you. But. You lie. Just like you did. before. You never changed. Why did I presume so? I'm glad you're gone. So at least now I know, i didnt make the mistake that same mistake that she is. so i guess? thank you. you've showed me. that some men. can just be downright assholes. =] <3Fy talk about epiphany. hahaha , 6:03 PM
It was a very bad night, very much a bad one. For the both of us I should think. But still, thank you for your support. =] you know who you are. Just know that I'm always here for you too okay? No matter what. You can always talk to me. =] xxx <3 Tuesday, October 21, 2008, 9:04 PM
im fucking trying so why dont you just lay off me and go away just leave me alone just for this one little while without dumping all this shit on me. please please please just leave me alone. im trying, i really really am, but not anymore. just dont give me more. please. Monday, October 20, 2008, 9:29 PM
Princess in Rags
We have all these pointless thoughts and fantasies Where none of them ever bother to come true All we do is hope and wish and pray And all that is proven is that the world is cruel Aimlessly walking through these endless corridors watch, the weight of the world bearing down Look at them, hand in hand, oblivious. This is a place where you don't belong. Just like Juliet, sitting upon the balcony, waiting for your non-existent Romeo. Hear the rocks thudding upon your window Rush, but there is no one there. Just like Rapunzel, upon the tall tower, sitting on that chipped wooden stool Long blonde hair, chopped into locks. Who is going to climb up to save you? Just like Cinderella as the clock struck twelve. In rags with only mice and pumpkin in hand Glass slippers, turned to ice. Cracks and melts along with what was left of you. Just like Sleeping Beauty, never to awake crying in desperation from the dreams, to live out a life that you were made for but never comes true ----------------- My heart, it cries for things unknown, How can you long for something you've never had? How can you want something so badly, without ever tasting it? I'm another of those princesses, without her carriage or her gowns or her shoes. I'm just another of those princesses, always in the background, never had a clue. Where is my prince charming? My knight in shining armor? Who is there to hold my hand? To tell me everything is going to be okay? When will someone come along to pull me upon his brave steed to tell me I am his and he is mine, to ride off into the sunset? I'm tired of waiting, when is this story going to end? where is my happy ending? , 6:24 PM
Yeahuh
State 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. The 10 people I tag are to then follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.and so, here it goes. 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about myself are : 1. I play computer games. Or I used to when I had the time. 2. Not really a weird factor, but I'm in absolute love with dancing. 3. I love walking under the rain. 4. After being the only female (aside for my mom) for so long. I've learn the basic survival techniques, such as, painting my own nails, styling my own hair, doing my own shopping... 5. My favourite animal is a wolf. 6. I absolutely distaste monkeys. 7. I have read Harry Potter 36 times. =] 8. I hate hate hate being thin. 9. I don't do any sports aside from dancing. 10. I've been wearing the same uniform for the past 4 years. 11. I like storing meaningful smses and emails forever and ever. 12. I cannot stand it when people say things like: "I know you..." when they do not. 13. I can cry to music. 14. I am in LOVE with anime. =D 15. If I am reading, and you talk to me. I can swear I would not respond. Yes, I am that oblivious of my surroundings. =P Saturday, October 18, 2008, 6:59 PM
knight in shining armour
im that juliet, waiting for her romeo. im rapenzul without her long blond hair im cinderella just as the clock has struck twelve im sleeping beauty, never to awake. Im just waiting for my prince in shining armour to pick me up and ride into the sunset to tell me im the one and only to live happily ever after. the story is coming to an end. where are you? , 4:00 PM
why oh why must they come up with such a topic? cant they do something easier? this'll take a while... , 12:06 AM
I Do Not Love You
haha. I've never heard of him before till today. I LOVE his poem tho. read this. I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz, or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off. I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul. I love you as the plant that never blooms but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers; thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance, risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body. I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you because I know no other way than this: where I does not exist, nor you, so close that your hand on my chest is my hand, so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep. oooh its pretty. =] LOVE it. anyway, gtg now. =D see you Thursday, October 16, 2008, 9:36 PM
Tagged once again
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___. ___12___, -Your name- Answers have ♥'s next to them 1. What's the color of your shirt? Blue - Our romance is over Red - Our affair is over White - I'll join the monastery ♥ Black - I dislike you Green - Our horoscope doesn't match Grey - You're a pervert Yellow - I'm selling myself Pink - Your nostrils are insulting Brown - The mafia wants you Orange - You're a fucking retard No shirt - You're a sore loser Other - I'm in love with your sister 2. Which is your birth month? January - That night ♥ February - Last year March - When your dwarf bit me April - When I tripped on sesame seeds May - First of May June - When you put cuffs on me July - When I threw up August - When I saw the shrunken head September - When we skinny dipped October - When I quoted Santa November - When your dog ran amok December - When I changed tennis shoes 3. Which food do you prefer? Tacos - In your apartment Pizza - In your camping car Pasta - Outside of Chicago Hamburgers - Under the bus Salad - As you ate enchilada Chicken - In your closet ♥ Kebab - With Paris Hilton Fish - In women's clothing Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation Lasagna - At the mental hospital Hot dog - Under a state of trance None of the above - With George Bush and his wife 4. What's the color of your socks? Yellow - Hit on Red - Insult Black - Ignore Blue - Knock out Purple - Pour syrup on White - Carve your initials into Grey - Pull the clothes offBrown - Put leeches on Orange - Castrate Pink - Pull the toupee off Barefoot - Sit on ♥ Other - Drive out 5. What's the color of your underwear? Black - My best friend White - My father ♥ Grey - Bill Clinton Brown - My fart balloon Purple - My mustard soufflé Red - Donald Duck Blue - My avocado plant Yellow - My penpal in Ghana Orange - My Kid Rock-collection Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper None - My John F. Kennedy-statue Other - The crazy monk 6. What do you prefer to watch on TV? Scrubs - Man ♥ O.C. - Emotional One Tree Hill - Open Heroes - Frostbitten Lost - High House - Scarred Simpsons - Cowardly The news - Mongolic American Idol - Masochistic Family Guy - Senile Top Model - Middle-class None of the above - Ashamed 7. Your mood right now? Happy - How awful I've felt Sad - How boring you are Bored - That Santa doesn't exist Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage Depressed - That we're cousins Excited - That there is no solution to this Nervous - The middle-east Frustrated - That the smell of your pee still lingers all over my couch Worried - That your Honda sucks Apathetic - That I did a sex-change Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men Overjoyous - That I'm open Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks ♥ 8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom? White - Your ring Yellow - Your love letters Red - Your Darth Vader-poster Black - Your tame stone Blue - The couch cushions Green - The pictures from LA My background is the same colour as my room. Orange - Your false teeth Brown - Your contact book Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs Purple - Your old lottery coupons Pink - The cut toenails ♥ Other - Your memories from the military service 9. The first letter of your first name? A/B - Your photo C/D - The oil stocks E/F - Your neighbour Martin ♥ G/H - My virginity I/J - The results of your blood-sample K/L - Your left ear M/N - Your suicide note O/P - My common sense Q/R - Your mom S/T - Your collection of butterflies U/V - Your criminal record W/X - David's tricot outfits Y/Z - Your grades from college 10. The last letter in your last name? A/B - Always will remember C/D - Never will forget E/F - Always wanted to break G/H - Never openly mocked I/J - Always have felt dirty before ♥ K/L - Will tell the authorities about M/N - Told in my confession today about O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about S/T - Get sick when I think of U/V - Always will try to forget W/X - Am better off without Y/Z - Never liked 11. What do you prefer to drink? Water- Our friendship Beer - Senility Soft drink - A new life as a clone Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo Milk - The apartment building Wine - Cocaine abuseCider - A passionate interest for mice Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations Mineral water - Embarrassing rash Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism ♥ Whisky - To ruin the second world war Other - To hate the Boston Celtics 12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation? Thailand - Warm regards USA - Best regards England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail Spain - Go and drown yourself China - Disgusting regards Germany - With ease Japan - Go burn Greece - Your everlasting enemy Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard Egypt - Fuck off now France - In pain ♥ Other - Greetings to your freaky family It will look like this. Dear Ai Ru, I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'll join the monastery ♥. I think I realized it that night in your closet ♥ and I saw you sit on ♥ my father ♥ . I'm sure you're man ♥ enough to understand that Extreme Home Makeover sucks ♥. I'm returning the cut toenails ♥ to you, but I'll keep your neighbor Martin ♥ as a memory. You should also know that I always have felt dirty before ♥ Eggplant-fetishism ♥ In Pain ♥, Fung I'm way too lazy to tag. haha <3Fy I must say, that was pretty hilarious. =P , 9:23 PM
dance dance
my big toes feels numb and i get cramps every time i tense up a muscle in my leg. =[ this isnt funny. and it really does hurt. and i have a blue black on my right foot where I dropped my Richard III on yesterday. =[ and THAT still hurts. stupid shakespeare. ah fudges, its 9.27 i wanna sleep at 10 i still got econs and history and maths and malay to do. screw them all. ill just read my econs book. hahahaha history? ill do taht tmrw morning. tirednesss! =P goodnight goodnight sleep tight sweet dreams xoxoxo <3 Fungie Wednesday, October 15, 2008, 9:54 PM
i cant do this. its just so damn hard. argh! <3 stupid stupid problems. , 9:49 PM
Just because.
just because i think of you doesnt mean i miss you just because i talk about you doesnt mean i want you. dont get any ideas. earth flight and discovery. psh. wonder hows that gonna work out... <3 Monday, October 13, 2008, 2:04 PM
Fall For You...
cuz tonight would be the night that I would fall for you over again dont make me change my mind i wont live to see another day i swear its true. cuz someone like you is impossible to find. impossible to find. its like being dropped from a fiftykm cliff edge into deep blue cascading waters crashing across the rocks frozen by the cold beaten to the bone. a second passes it feels like forever and her heart beat stops. sometimes, going through day to day. its worst than it seems. it just grows and grows. untill its large enough to engulf you within its bitter embrace. its bitter, dark, cold, frustrating embrace. you wonder where you went wrong what had happened? why oh why do you live the way you do. its hard. to breathe. to carry on. but then, what other choice. does a girl have? <3Fy ICT's not helping my mood. Sunday, October 12, 2008, 9:02 PM
Little Bitty Pretty Lady
mmhmm it was indeed. =] i had an awesome time at dance. albeit i didnt know the steps to the fox trot and quickstep. but i still had fun. i loved my new dance shoes, even though cuz they were new they hurt like crap. but its a good start to the week. i actually really enjoyed myself today. i cant wait for tmrw's dance practise (if i can) and tuesdays class =D i miss dancing. goshies. haha yesterday's recital was a success. i enjoyed myself and didnt do as badly as i thought i would have (unless my friends, family and teacher are lying to me) but i actually enjoyed performing. hahaha. it was fun. =D and now i have a kazillion ideas for eistedfodd this year. dance dance dance <3 <3 <3 if, i get in of course. hahaha ooh i love foxtrot music. it sends shivers up and down my spine. it reminds me so much of rumba i tell you. so seductive. haha im in the mood the crazy mood to dance hahaha holy shit. listen to the song "I've got rhythm" from Take the Lead. its pretty damn cool. hahaha. i expected a normal foxtrot song. i guess i expect wrongly. hahahha oh wellz. argh. im hoping to be able to get my splits right before the end of this month. its so stupid that i cant anymore. i really need to get it right. you know i wish i was like janet. =P shes like ferriggin made of rubber i tell you. RUBBER. lol. better yet, water. its like her joints arent connected together =[ ah well, not everyone can be that lucky. LOL. mmhmm its a good day =D see you! xxxxx FUNGUS Friday, October 10, 2008, 5:41 PM
uhuh... yeah.
stress stress stress i have the recital tomorrow. socio test on tues econs test on fri and my dance exams *which I am so so so so so afraid for* so sleepy. somehow, even though its a real stupid reason. i just cant sleep. the bloody dance steps just keep replaying in my head again and again i HAVE to do well. i just have to... sigh. have you ever had the feeling like... ur sorta useless? yes yes, a very emo thought to touch... but like, i hate all these disappointments around me. i cant sing. i cant dance. my bloody english sucks. so does my math. my science is about to kill me. i can never get what i want and i always always make decisions that i regret forever. whats the point? everythings slipping through my fingers all the time. its just... okay, maybe im just in an emo mood. right. i gotta start digging myself outta this hole. this 10 billion feet deep hole. lol. right. anyway I CANT WAIT TILL TOMORROW. not cuz of the recital thing tho. cuz i get to go look at dance shoes tomorrow!!! =D =D =D cant wait. talk about FINALLY <3fy Thursday, October 9, 2008, 11:06 PM
dancing disaster
horrible horrible horrible. first, practice with joshua was horrible. then micheal's class. then yukiko's class. just plain plain horrible. i have no idea why. i just couldnt find the energy to dance. specially not with his eyes staring into my back. with joshua. it was taxing for both of us, cuz i keep messing up and looking towards him. it was just hard... i dont know. i cant get rid of it. and then micheals was annoying. dont know why. i couldnt move properly, i couldnt feel the music. it was exhausting and really painful. and then yukiko. omgosh. lol. talk about embarassing and incredibly painful. she was so harsh today. and then telling us. *ME especially* that if we cant remember or dance the properly, we my as well not take the exams. it was such a BURN. i tell you. BURN. like literally, sizzle to the ground. i need help. like loadsa help. SIGH. and then after that i took off my shoes. and half of my big toe-skin was gone. yes, digusting. but painful. lol and im exhausted atm. i dont even know why im not gonna go to bed yet. i just cant help thinking y'know. about his eyes, about the way he looks at me. i mean, im sureits there for a reason. =P oh god. it kills me at times. to know im the reason. i just want to hold him tight, to help him. to just talk to him. the brain i mean. its so hard not to... but i know i shouldnt. i just shouldnt. sigh.... i SHOULD go anyway. so ill say my goodnights and my goodbyes. =] see you. xxxx <3fy Sunday, October 5, 2008, 11:02 PM
takes it all...
"Just one look, and I can hear the bells ringing" "Mamma mia, here I go again." "Honey honey, how it thrills me" haha. i wonder whats with my obsession with their songs. its just so strange, i can go about singing them for hours and hours. and then, their words contain some truth. honey honey how it kills me. i dont understand me sometimes. its kinda confusing. maybe konhao was right. =P Im too complicating for my own good. lol. It's like shooting a sitting duck more like again and again. the gods may throw the dice, their minds as cold as ice. oh it sends shivers up and down my spine. this thing that I dont recognize. or rather, i recognize too well. but i refuse refuse to believe it or this. i cant i wont oh i beg of you dear. i just wont. and then someone way down here, loses someone dear. the winner takes it all the loser has to fall sigh. so am i part of this game? i hold the trophy, im standing on the finishing line. yet why do i feel as though, ive just came in last? this head it kills me. this heart its not doing any better. why the heck am i so emo? lol. i dont get it. barfagurguseribudagaerish. screw this. im gonna go to bed. and hopefully, strangers wont haunt me in my sleep. i blame arianna. =] <3 -who else? |
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